every second i'm without you, i'm a mess.

plastikundies @ 2006-04-21T15:49:00

2006-04-21T19:53:23Z

i don't even know him anymore.. he isn't at all who he aspired to be or was.. he's completely different.. hes everything he hated. he's the fakest person ever.. i can finally say i would not go back to him if i had the chance if he is who he is now. he made me wanna be a better person and now i just feel bad for him.. i lost all my respect, hope, and faith for him.. anyway i have a new lj bye fuckers.

plastikundies @ 2006-04-19T22:26:00

2006-04-20T02:28:03Z

yay i'm the only girl that placed in the track meet im happy because my time was better :] yay that means im improving and my chem grade is sooo good im so happy

plastikundies @ 2006-04-18T21:44:00

2006-04-19T01:48:47Z

lmaoo honestly. i tried to start my paper. LIKE i really tried to start it.. i'm still trying atleast i opened a word document i just read a chat between my ex and i where we first talked about having to go and being so busy then like talking for like ever lol and then saying like a hundred times that we were gonna go and never end up leaving and yelling at eachother to do our work.. oh man im rediculously lazy. like i really wanted to start this paper.. i mean its 8 pages and its due friday. lmaooooooooo. oh my god i'm so fucked. the chat was so good though 2006-02-27 mmmm chill chat. <3

plastikundies @ 2006-04-17T21:53:00

2006-04-18T01:55:52Z

I'm reading your note over again
And there's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
I will love you always and forever

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you're pretending.

no one can fake passion. </3

track

2006-04-18T00:55:19Z

yay i got gold aka first place in my track meet

ughh i've been mad happy lately :] yay im proud of myself everything has been going right except for my baby changing but hes changed and gone and im ok with that because it was his decision he messed up the end. i win my track meet .. i didn't start my 8 page essay. my face is BURNT. ughh my nose is all red :] kay burr im cold maybe ill start this essay probbaaalby not lmao <3 ya yaya yayay. i've been doing so good lately and it wasnt for stupid science i would've had honor roll ! yay next time ill get it

plastikundies @ 2006-04-16T01:21:00

2006-04-16T05:30:47Z

Best Advice You Will Probably Ever Hear:

*If he's not calling you, it's because you're not on his mind.

*If he doesn't follow through on little things, he will do the same for big things. Be aware of this and realize that he's okay with disappointing you.

*Don't be with someone who doesn't do what they say they're going to do.

*"Busy" is another word for "asshole." "Asshole" is another word for the guy you're dating.

*If at all possible, try to get to know someone as best you can before you get naked with them.

*If a man is really into you, nothing will stop him from being with you - including a fear of intimacy.

*Whatever problems you may have been having in your relationship, they didn't merit him having sex with someone else.

*An excuse is a polite rejection. Men are not afraid of "ruining the friendship."

*If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will.

*Cheating is bad. Not knowing why you cheated is even worse. Don't date any man who doesn't know why he does things.

*100 men polled said they have never accidentally slept with anyone.

*100 men polled said they've never been too busy to call a woman they were really into.

*Cheating is cheating. It doesn't matter whom it was with or how many times it happened.

*Cheating gets easier every time it's done. It's only hard the first time, when one feels the sting of morality and the guilt of betraying someone's trust.

*It doesn't count unless he says it when he's sober. An "I Love You" (or any semblance thereof) while under the influence of anything stronger than grape juice won't hold up in court or in life.

*If he only wants to see you, talk to you, have sex with you, etc., when he's inebriated, it ain't love - it's sport.

*Don't spend your time on and give your heart to any guy who makes you wonder about anything related to his feelings for you.

*If you feel that's he's always holding something back, or that you're spending a lot of energy trying to change yourself into something you think will make him happier, then divorce yourself from him and move on.

*100 guys polled said they would have no problem marrying a woman who they were positive was the love of their life.

*It's very tempting when you really want to be with someone to settle for much, much less - even a vague, pathetic facsimile of less - than you would have ever imagined. Remember always what you set out to get, and please don't settle for less.

*Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision. Just remember that the person that you are getting back together with is the same person who, not long before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you and all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company.

*You can't talk your way out of a breakup. It is not up for discussion. A breakup is a definitive action, not a democratic one.

*Break up sex still means you're broken up.

*CUT HIM OFF, LET HIM MISS YOU.

*Don't give him the chance to reject you again.

*If the person you "love" cannot freely spend his days thinking about you and being with you, it's not REAL love.

*Unless he's all yours, he's still hers.

*Try not to be 4 years into the relationship when it suddenly dawns on you that the guy you're with is a big, selfish jerk.

*You deserve to be with someone who is nice to you all the time. (You have to be nice to them, too.)

*You already have one asshole. You don't need another.

awe ;]

http://maddox.xmission.com/ <- lmao

k.. hi

saira what is wrong with me lmao

plastikundies @ 2006-04-15T23:23:00

2006-04-16T03:25:15Z

LOVE LUST LAUR: and i have mad other HOT guys
glitterate sai: FINALLYYYYYYYYYY
LOVE LUST LAUR: that treat me like a princess and love me
glitterate sai: *phew*
LOVE LUST LAUR: and have porches
glitterate sai: ....
LOVE LUST LAUR: lmao
glitterate sai: wtf does having a PORCH
LOVE LUST LAUR: i meant
glitterate sai: have anything
LOVE LUST LAUR: porsch
glitterate sai: to do with love
LOVE LUST LAUR: LMAO
glitterate sai: lmaoooooooooooooooooooooooo
LOVE LUST LAUR: lMAO
glitterate sai: PORCSEHHE*
LOVE LUST LAUR: HAHAH
LOVE LUST LAUR: U CANT SPELL IT EITHER LOL
glitterate sai: LOL, btw :X
glitterate sai: loooooooooooooooll oh yes i can
glitterate sai: ...
glitterate sai: PORUSHE
glitterate sai: PORSCHE

plastikundies @ 2006-04-14T12:48:00

2006-04-14T16:49:54Z

his am " if you love some one you let them know and you don't let them go"

i think i'll stop now :( since he dun luv me :((((((((((((((((

plastikundies @ 2006-04-12T00:18:00

2006-04-12T04:23:56Z

i took a bath :} yes i do shower / bathe sometimes lmaoo i don't always smell..

i did thinkign & talked to alot of people tonight and i think they're right they made me compare who he was and who he is now he isnt who he was a year ago. he doesn't even look the same int he picture of us he is smiling his face is glowing his teeth are so sparkley like he always made sure they were whiter than white he was always driven with passion for everything not only hip hop but life itself he had so many goals and he really wanted to do them liek work out more but some where along the way he lost his passion for life he always tried his hardest now when i see him he looks lazy and dirty like looking at pictures back and from now he looks so mean and cold he smokes and back then he never would have done that i know eventually he will change back but is it going to be too late?

plastikundies @ 2006-04-11T20:14:00

2006-04-12T00:19:41Z

sexiesman: but i liked you
hiimhot: a lot
hi ihatereadingthis: i still do...
KiSS MY LAUR: okay mena bena
i think im gonna slit my wrist: like stuff like that
KiSS MY LAUR: what
i got a w key: you know.. you're right... you are irrisistible
KiSS MY LAUR: :]
*slits wrist*: yerp

:( i love reading old chats.

i have the common sense of a tissue box?

o0h i love being inlove. *kisses myself*

plastikundies @ 2006-04-11T19:54:00

2006-04-12T00:02:40Z

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

glitterate sai: **** does look happy btw in the pic
LOVE LUST LAUR: i knooooo

plastikundies @ 2006-04-11T01:34:00

2006-04-11T05:35:40Z

sexiestmanalivesays: no we didnt... we tried for 24 hours... you juss need to start communicating with me more... and not get angry about little shit... and i'll try not to do the stuff that pisses you off... cuz... i dunno... when we were togethor... it felt right... like we were good.. but as soon as we seperate i dunno what happens to us

i kno look at old convos & pics is a greeeat \//\ay to get over some one.. sike. ill deff be single fa eva.

mmm i look mad good. :]. hatorade. !

its so weird like im totally okay without him but at the same time i feel like somethings missing i like my hair alot

plastikundies @ 2006-04-07T23:45:00

2006-04-08T03:54:38Z

okay i know i'm retarded. but i'm really not. because i KNOw we're supposed to be together. I KNOw it. and nothing can change my mind. i mean we're totally okay apart but we're completely happy when we're together. maybe i am wasting my time and waiting for no reason but i have to do this . because wether i'm being stupid or not. I LOVE him and thats never going to change. i believe in my heart that we're going to be together and that all of this will be worth it but it sucks. it SUCKS ASS FACES being without the person who completes you. who you've grown with. i mean i wouldnt even get back with him if he said to like now i mean iwould but i'd wanna take things like mad slow and i need him to change back to who he really is, thats the guy i love. not the guy he pretends to be, i hate it and am sick of it. i was eating lunchables pizza the other day and all i wanted to do was sit in his back seat in a blanket curled up in a ball on his stomach fitting perfectly and eat lunchables. i'm going to wait as long as it takes till he comes to his senses because i kno i put him through hell and he deserves everything from me thats y im waiting because i'm inlove. and true love doesn't end. what i never did for love, i'm doing now. what you don't do, you do for mena i mean love. :] but anyway tonight was mad fun met up with old friends and im totally ok without him, i just feel a tad incomplete. :}]] kay peace argh i wish i could just talk to him

you may smile but never laugh
you may sleep but never dream
you may be content but never happy
you may be satisfied but never full
you'll never be filled with the happiest love brought you
you'll never be filled with the joy
you'll never feel like the world has stopped and its just you and her
you'll never have your other half
the one that fills you with everything you need
you'll never feel anything like that

i'll live without you love but
what's one glove without the other?

plastikundies @ 2006-04-06T18:59:00

2006-04-06T23:00:56Z

"Somewhere In Between..."
Somewhere between the procrastination,
And the homework,
And the new friendships,
And the nasty dorm food,
And the calls home complaining about roommates & boyfriends...

Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends,
And the "I miss you's",
And the "I love you's",
And the "I can't wait to see you again's",
And somewhere between all of the changing and growing...

Somewhere between classes
And the skipping classes,
And the studying for tests,
And the pretending to study for tests,
And downright NOT studying for tests...

I forgot.
I forgot what it was like to be in high school.
I forgot what it meant to cry.
I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy.
And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart.

I forgot that you can't forget the past.
I forgot that you can't control falling in love,
And that you can't make yourself fall in love.

I learned that I can love.
I learned that good food doesn't really seem great until you can't have it again.
And I learned that even I would grow to love soup and mac & cheese.

I noticed that I get along better with my mom now than I ever did before.
And it wasn't because she changed - it was because I changed.

I learned that going to college means making choices,
And that making choices can get you into trouble.
I learned that it's ok to mess up,
And it's ok to ask for help.

I learned that sometimes the things you want most in life you just can't have.

I learned that the greatest thing about college isn't the parties,
Or the drinking,
Or the guys...

It's the chances.
Taking those chances, and making the most of them.

I learned that the things we want to forget
Are the things which we most need to talk about.
I learned that once you go to college, things do't automatically get better...
It's what you make of them.
I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing...
And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better.

But basically, I just learned that my friends
-Both old and new-
Are the most important people to me in the world.
And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.

So this is a thank you to all my friends for always being there.
I love you.

plastikundies @ 2006-04-01T13:57:00

2006-04-01T18:59:05Z

it sucks being a\/\/ay from the person you love.. but \/\/hat you don't do, you do for love. <3 & any\//ay doing this just makes us stronger <3 & i am stronger from it cause i never kne\/\/ ]\/\/jat lov \/\/as b4 =) because i'm perfectly happy\/\/ithout him but \/\/e're just better together cause \/\/e complete eachother like \/\/hats one glove\/\/ithout the other ;] o0 i keep having this horrrible dream. rest of the \/\/eekend should be pretty chill .. tonight = play sunday = being treated like a king at my friends house and being served lol

oh yea and last night \/\/as pure insanity.

plastikundies @ 2006-03-23T19:54:00

2006-03-24T00:55:51Z

Oh, oh, oh, Yeah, Yeah
Ohhhhhhh (Broken promises, thats what your givin me)
Yeah(broken promises)

No more lonely nights
Baby thats just what you told me
But you're no where to be found.
Something just aint right
Cuz I cant get you to hold me
Even when youre around.

Baby you promised me
That you'd always be there for me
Tell me Whats on your mind?

[Chorus]
What happened to the I love you's?
The hugs and kisses and the rendevous?
What happened to me and you?
You said you'd never change.
What happened baby talk to me
You used to be sugar sweet just like candy
Now your breakin my heart
With all your broken promises.

broken promises but you don't really mind
i remember when you came with me that night you said forever that you would never let me go
but here i am again nothing left inside

la la la, i'm keeping my promises & my head up because i know im chill :]

thanks bfflzzz <3

brb poop <3

plastikundies @ 2006-03-23T17:50:00

2006-03-23T22:57:20Z

he broke all his promises just like i broke them awhile back. but i'm never going to break another. i promised him that i'll always love him and be there and thats just what i'm gonna do. i don't care that he hates me, nothing is going to change my mind. i'll always love who he truely is, not the fictional image he wants to be. he'll realize it sooner and later and it'll all be good. kay bye bye spring break. i really like spring break. i did allll my homework.. so im free this entire weekend :] i think im gonna keep growing my hair even though i have enough to donate. yeaa so saturday i'm volunteering at a homeless shelter and i bought mad food for them with my babysitting money.. so i'm really happy giving back :]]]]]]]]] kaykay peace out oh yea and i jsut started these pills an they make me so efffing energetic. i was on the phone till 6 am lol kk i ran 4 miles today. i need to be under 100 :] kay so tomatoe i'm going to my bffls house :] yipeeee i just got new clothes with sai sai an i got all ghetto jeans & lots of sexy tops .. and some nice dressy ones.. i loveee this turtle neck ig ot it.. it looks soo classy :] kaykay bye xooxox

OH AND MY SCIENCE PROJECT IS SO SICK. like its rediculous.

plastikundies @ 2006-03-22T22:29:00

2006-03-23T03:30:44Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	lauren laur laur laur laur OR maa, mittens, ice cream, snowflake, tushi, buttercup, iguannaa, diaperface, cutiepie, sweeetz(like candy lol), sexpert.
Birthday:	NEw YEARS EVE BABAY :] (December 31, 2005.. for you dummies)
Birthplace:	UHM. idk. :] durf.
Current Location:	My bedroom in New Jerzzee.. COME SEE MY PUPPIE, she has her period :]
Eye Color:	blue + yellow + some other poop.
Hair Color:	Mellow YEllow.
Height:	5 feets.
Right Handed or Left Handed:	depends on what im doing :]
Your Heritage:	Hi, Uh. Irish Christian.. Idk?! did I answer it?
The Shoes You Wore Today:	flippity floppitie flops.
Your Weakness:	cheese steaks, denim, my hell0phone.
Your Fears:	pirates & going bald.
Your Perfect Pizza:	cicilian !!!!!!!!!!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	straight A's ! and buy more jeanns
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lMAO.. mainly because it looks like a rino :] or mAYBE SMILEYS.
Thoughts First Waking Up:	i love you!
Your Best Physical Feature:	DEFF NOT MY BOOBS, on account that i have 0. Kay, I like my stomach & eyes.
Your Bedtime:	I'm an insomniac, no joke, i never sleep. I fall asleep on the phone every night.
Your Most Missed Memory:	Rain forest cafe with my ex BF.
Pepsi or Coke:	Neitheeeeeeeeer, Gross!!!
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDonaldsss, but I rarelyyy have it.
Single or Group Dates:	Bothhhhhhhhhhhh.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Neithhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhher. Yuck!
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla and Chocolate.
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Neithhhhhhhhhhhhhher. Except french vanilla.. mmm. mm. mm.
Do you Smoke:	Nopeeeeee.
Do you Swear:	Never :]
Do you Sing:	Yes, but i shouldn't. lmao.
Do you Shower Daily:	Nope, never shower.
Have you Been in Love:	I'm always inlove.
Do you want to go to College:	Yes, nerds are 2 hott.
Do you want to get Married:	Yah.
Do you belive in yourself:	without a doubt.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	nurp.
Do you think you are Attractive:	I could erect a few.
Are you a Health Freak:	I'm becoming one.
Do you get along with your Parents:	Sometimes.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	I used to hate them. OH MAN. i have a funny story. I was so afraid once i took duck tape and like pull my curtains and covered all my windows and put tape everywhere. and left it there and the next day a friend came over and was like wtttttfffffffff.. lollllllllllllllll. OHMAN. OHHHHHHHHH. lol
Do you play an Instrument:	hehe, no.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	hahahahahhaha :]
In the past month have you Smoked:	noH.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	whyy in the world would i sit on drugs?
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yesh, i've gone on like 50 in 2 weeks.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yess.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	NOooooh. Thats bad for you!
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	YES! MMM. YUMMAY MONKEYY.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Hahahaa. Kinda? If you count it at a club!
In the past month have you been Dumped:	omg yes every morning thanks to good fiber!
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	its burrr cold.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	yesss- hearts. :] hahaha!
Ever been Drunk:	IDK! :]
Ever been called a Tease:	YESH.
Ever been Beaten up:	No, i BEAt BitChEs Up.
Ever Shoplifted:	No0h.
How do you want to Die:	never. uhh like in the notebook with my baby.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	I'm not sure but I wanna help people :]
What country would you most like to Visit:	Moscow.
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	poop.
Favourite Hair Color:	light poop.
Short or Long Hair:	sho0rt.
Height:	talller than me. ;]
Weight:	idkk.! i like fat guys!
Best Clothing Style:	Cleann cuttt !
Number of Drugs I have taken:	Zipp.
Number of CDs I own:	IDK. I HAVE LL COOL J & SPICE GIRLS. MM.
Number of Piercings:	2.
Number of Tattoos:	0.
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	984098590485094850485048504850934850948590384093 things but i'm over them so 0.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

plastikundies @ 2006-03-22T03:13:00

2006-03-22T08:14:54Z

oh man this movie is so sad lol

"it was real wasn't it?"
"you and me, such along time ago.. just a couple of kids.. we really loved eachother.. didn't we. I should go.. goodbye"
----------
"why didn't you write me? it wasn't over for me. i waited for you for seven years"
"i wrote you 365 letters, i wrote you a letter every day for a year, it wasn't over, it still isn't over"
------
"im not afraid to hurt ur feelings, you have a 2 second rebound rate and then ur back again doing ur pain in the ass things"
"so what"
"so its not gonna be easy and its gonna be really hard, and we're gonna have to work at it every day but i wanna do that because i want you, i want all of you forever everyday.. dont take the easy way out. would you stop thinking about everyone wants. me your parents him what do you want?"
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plastikundies @ 2006-03-22T00:54:00

2006-03-22T05:56:47Z

hi, i'm gay. A LITTLE FYI FOR BOYS. I"M LESBIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. sike. i'm just inlove.. Whats the differnece hahaha k brb

plastikundies @ 2006-03-21T00:40:00

2006-03-21T05:48:39Z

Enrique Iglesias - Hero Lyrics

Let me be your hero,

Would you dance,
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run,
and never look back?
Would you cry,
if you saw me crying?
And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble,
if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die,
for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Would you swear,
that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just wanna to hold you.
I just wanna to hold you.
Oh yeah.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care...
You're here, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you, forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

Oh - thinkin' about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free

Now nothin' can take you away from me
We bin down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh - once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down

Ya - nothin' could change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way

N' baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've bin waitin' for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along

Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
Ya - I'll be standin' there by you

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

plastikundies @ 2006-03-21T00:31:00

2006-03-21T05:36:42Z

hi, my pimple went away ! i've had it for like 4 months.. i keed i keed.. not that long.. like 3 weeks and it didn't go away but its gone now maybe because i'm not stressinn. kay well i know me and meme will eventually be together so i'll just wait and leave him be but im gonna stop being an asshole to boys & get my friends back <3

i'm like so happy my pimple went away. like lol seddy knows how it drove me crazy. like i've had it for so dman longggggggggg. like honestly i've had it for what seems like forever. i hate pimples they suck ! i get 1 a month when i get my period

so yea my science project is sickkkkkkkk.

plastikundies @ 2006-03-20T20:21:00

2006-03-21T01:30:33Z

My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah

Young Allie: Why didn't you write me? Why? It wasn't over for me, I waited for you for seven years. But now it?s too late.
Young Noah: I wrote you 365 letters. I wrote you everyday for a year.
Young Allie: You wrote me?
Young Noah: Yes... it wasn't over, it still isn't over

Young Noah: It's not about following your heart and it's not about keeping your promises. It's about security.
Young Allie: What's that supposed to mean?
Young Noah: [yelling] Money. He?s got a lot of money!
Young Allie: You smug bastard. I hate you for saying that.
Young Noah: You're bored Allie. You're bored and you know it. You wouldn't be here if you weren't.
Young Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch.
Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I though that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Young Allie: It's not that simple.
Young Noah: What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?
Young Allie: I have to go now.

Allie: Do you think our love, can take us away together?
Duke: I think our love can do anything we want it to.
Allie: I love you.
Duke: I love you, Allie.
Allie: Good night.
Duke: Good night. I'll be seeing you.

Duke: They didn't agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday...
Young Noah: [Allie and Noah are fighting] Don't push me!
[Allie pushes Noah anyway]
Duke: ...But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.

Young Allie: Whattaya want?
[asks after he tells her he needs to regain his strength after making love all day]
Young Noah: I want some... pancakes... and some bacon.

ok i made neW live journal because im too depressed for anyone to actually read my thoughts they'd think im crazier than i already am.. so ya

plastikundies @ 2006-03-20T20:13:00

2006-03-21T01:14:56Z

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

’cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
’cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that i

plastikundies @ 2006-03-20T13:12:00

2006-03-20T18:20:12Z

s is my last call to you
Then I'll give up everything
That we had, that we'd do
And you'll never hear me sing
All these songs about you
So just take this time and think
Just take this time and think

Think about the things that we had
The good times before they went bad
They're not gone just yet
It's all up to you
Think about the dreams in our heads
Layin' awake, holding on in my bed
Why don't you go ahead
And make them come true
I still believe in you

[Chorus]

Think about the plans that we made
Drivin' around while the radio played
They may have gotten delayed
But they're waiting for you
Think about the look in my eyes
Saying I love you the very first time
Focused, not blind
And you said it too
I still believe in you

[Chorus]

Think of everything, think of everything we had
Think of everything, think of everything we haven't had
Like livin' in the Midwest Club
Goin' on our honeymoon in Paris
Makin' out when we're grown up
Listening to the best man speech
From Darren
Think of everything we had
Knowing how it feels to be in love
And kisses that would drive us mad
Going to the Metro
Giving up what we will
Never have again
Will it ever be the the two of us again?

This is my last call to you
Then I'll give up everything
That we had, that we'd do
And you'll never hear me sing
All these songs about you
So just take this time and think
Plans we made but didn't see through
Just take this time and think
Memories, me and you
Just take this time and think
Dreams we had that never came true
Just take this time and think
The look in my eyes lookin' at you
Just take this time and think
Just take this time and think
Just take this time and think

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did